Afterlife
Living Proof
Nothing Changes
Two Red Chairs
Every Bad Dream
280sl
Everything Has Happened
Lost on Me
Over
Living Proof
Let the water run down your neck.
Let yourself get upset.
No witnesses so it’s up to you
to make it sound something like the truth
You’ve realized you’ve leant with ease
on fictions not realities.
There’s no response
so it’s up to you to provide
some kind of living proof.
Proof there was something,
a body or two.
Living proof
Living proof
Nothing Changes
Is it blue enough for you,
as blue as it is green
or is it fog too thick to see through?
pool water at your back
sun burning through your eyes
you look up at familiar skies saying
nothing changes here (nothing changes here)
nothing changes here (nothing changes here)
what held your body down?
what held you in its stare?
as you were writing “death in an Aderondak chair”
saying
nothing changes here (nothing changes here)
nothing changes here (nothing changes here)
nothing changes, nothing changes here
nothing changes here
it’s just falling asleep
and a failure to wake
ignored by the dragonfly
nothing changes here (nothing changes here)
nothing changes here (nothing changes here)
nothing changes, nothing changes here
nothing changes here
Two Red Chairs
Two red chairs in the front room,
it’s too obvious and it’s too soon.
No one speak of the damage
give me a good mess I can manage .
Get the kitchen clean,
blow the candles out,
leave the music on
and boys don’t be afraid to look around
at the immediate unknowns following this,
Crystals of a life you’re gonna miss
are forming now.
move the fabric to the annex
drink the water with the Xanax
no one speak of the absence
find a vessel for the ashes
give the clothes away
make the circle small
leave the music on and
girls don’t be afraid to really scream
at the immediate unknowns following this
crystals of a life that should have been
are forming now
now now now now
NOW NOW NOW NOW
NOW now now now
now now now
Every Bad Dream
You sat there and sighed
like we’d been over it a million times
an argument scripted
we’re just reading over the lines
I look at the floor
when i can’t take it anymore
just as defenseless as I was the night before
Every bad dream tells me the
same sad thing but i still wonder
don’t you, what the morning will bring?
the water glass, the coffee steam rising fast
what are the odds that you look up at me and laugh
baby be kind don’t ignore the reminders
that there was a time we could put shit behind us
it’s just a dream telling you sad, sad things
gotta wonder, don’t you, I still wonder, don’ t you
i still wonder
280 SL
Heel-toe your feet apart
show your bones like works of art
oh, susie i don’t know where to start
loyal eyes at the foot of the bed
there’s a barrier of language
that leaves this look the only way to say it
to say, i’m not going to stick around
to say i’m not gonna stick around for you
Bill, keep your mind on the eggs
fry ‘em up and let her rest
I know you’ve done your very best
All of this you made of wood
will remind you more than memory could
that this was real that this was good
and hey someone’s gonna come around to say
someone’s gonna come around for you
i wish there was more that i could do, but hey
baby blue 280SL
wait a year or two to sell
but if you don’t, i’ll never tell
Everything Has Happened
meet me with your camera
at the mouth of the monster
we’ll watch the rolling insides of the earth
maybe we’ll just stand there
in reverence toward her power
losing the last notions of our worth
and anything could happen
it could all go black
if anything should happen
we could always turn back
meet me in the morning
at the base of the mountain
we only go as far as we can
all we see are freeways but
nothing gets us these days
we stomach all the shit that we can
if anything should happen
would I react?
cause everything has happened
and i just want you back
i just want you back
i keep waiting for the call
cause i just can’t get my head around
you not showing up at all
can’t you see the logic
where i go every time
every breath i’m bargaining away
telling you to climb down
telling you that I’ve found every single reason
you should stay
but everything has happened
yeah it all went black
everything has happened
i just want you back
i just want you back
Lost on Me
Last night wasn’t who bad
i tell you softly through the phone
the work here isn’t too hard
maybe the money is worth it alone
last year feels like a waste
he says it’s an outlook i gotta change
and her clothes are starting to fade
still gonna wear them everyday
it’s not lost on me
that this is what I’ve been
that this is what you’ve seen
always half of me drive until i spin
reverse and back again
friends call, I tell you to go
that i’ve never had trouble being alone
but late night loss of control
now i resent you for having not known
and it’s not lost on me
that this is what I’ve been
that this is what you’ve seen
always half of me
drive until i spin
reverse and back again
Over
everything’s fine
and as it should be
so maybe the cut wasn’t
so clean
whatever this was or wanted to be
if it’s over for you
it’s over for me
i know you are
what i need you to be
so i keep you far
just out of reach
if there is a line
it’s one i can’t see
but it wouldn’t be crossed
if you drew it for me
won’t you draw in for me
oooo oooo
ooooo oooo
how strong am i supposed to be?
how wrong am i to believe ?
how long till there is some relief?
cause when it’s over for you
it’s over for me
Tonight Turns To Nothing
1. Spill
2. Wrong
3. Seen By You
4. Long Con
5. Ghosts
6. Dream Possession
7. Silver in the Dark
8. Still Strangers
9. Talking to the Dead
10. Watercolor Lover
11. Temporary Thing
SPILL
Spill me out on the floor
I don’t want to be drunk anymore
Bent over on the side
Of the 5 cause i can’t afford
the hundred-dollar fine
At least see me to the door
Or don’t you give a shit anymore
Cuz i’m casual it’s cool
And this conversations
Really just a tool
To get you where you wanna go
To get you where you wanna go
Quote me pages from the book
You say defines you but i can
Tell by the look
On your face you’re still waiting to be saved
I might be good at that
But i’m really trying to change
Not just get you where you wanna
Not just get you where you wanna
I can’t get you where you wanna…
all of this to say
that all i want to be
is chosen from the room
and shown out to the sea
pointed across the water
to the places i can go
like a mother to her daughter
in case she didn’t know
that her maritime dreams
aren’t so in her mind
that all of this concrete
is better left behind
WRONG
She wanna go big
She wanna go long
She wanna go where no one’s gone
Deep into the night
Catch her in the screen light
Wondering if she’s getting it wrong
Wrong
She wants the real thing
lover that he could be
If loving wasn’t frightening
Maybe she’d stop then
Needing to forgive him
Every time that he goT it wrong
Wrong
oh Put your temple to mine
We’ve got time, don’t we?
If only we knew how
To get it
Any way at all.
Fear of the between
Fear of grand scheme
Now is that really
What you mean?
Everyone’s talking
Everyone’s laughing
At everybody getting it
Wrong, wrong
Put your body to mine
I’ll be kind to it
fCan’t show you how to do this
Can’t show you how to do
Anything at all
SEEN BY YOU
Think we’re watching a little too closely
And it’s getting in the way
It’s like we do it without knowing
That this is no way to behave
Oh what’s the problem
Oh what’s keeping you awake
are you searching for his love
Like it’ll save you from the quake
Every time they ask me how i see myself
Every time he ask me how i see myself
I say as seen by you
And i swear that i’m done
Tryna get behind those eyes
The incendiary gaze
Burning right though mine
Every time they ask me how i see myself
Every time they ask me how i see myself
I say as seen by you
LONG CON
oh, what’s behind the door
is there something more
that i can expect?
we were just around the bend
from feeling okay again
but you’re in it for the song
in it for the long con
in it for the bet
but i’m out this round
cause my luck’s already down
ah but the logic’s always been
what’s another hit, what’s another taste
what’s life if it’s not mine
to waste
not once without your charm
even with a band tight around your arm
but i’m out this round
i’ll be gone when you’re coming down.
ah but the logic’s always been
what am i gonna miss
what’s another day
what’s life if it’s not mine
to waste
GHOSTS
Quiet,
ear to your chest
Falling walls and the rest
Of commonly held opinions
Finally disappearing
Move me onto the floor
Dissolve a little more
I’ll what you dance with your ghosts
If you say you love me the most
I’ll watch you dance with your ghost
If you say you love me the most
And you might need permission
From me to give any fight
You’re in no position
To love anything, oh but you might.
Half way you’ll let me know
How far i’ve still to go
The joke’s on the hand-drawn map
I’ve crumpled and torn in our laps
The trusted advice in the stars
I read you aloud in the car
And you might need permission
From them to give any fight
You sit and blame conditions
When I could have loved you if I tried
DREAM POSSESSION
that face
that look
textbook description
of what i’ve been missing
out here, joking
but really hoping
to get ya, but
where to find?
My dream possession
something to hold
and i can see
we can now
but choose not to
cause our eyes let us down
every time
A touch that knows
where to go and where not to
until instructed
I’ve trusted irresponsibly.
unresponsive, you just laid
down and let me lose,
didn’t you?
my dream possession
something to hold
STILL STRANGERS
Hey, john you move to slow for me
And i’m spending all this money
Wondering where you’re going
As the night turns to nothing
it’s all i’ve been thinking
You said southern california
Nobody ever warned ya
That she’d wrap you in this sadness
You asked me what are the chances
Of us leaving Los Angeles tonight
You could grab another drink for me
We’ll make a plan built on fantasy
Of a home in the desert
or the trees meet the water
But i’m happy in this bar here
Getting drunk and across the table
You ask me if i know what it’s like
To wanna close the door forever
And never go outside
And i said obviously i do
But i think i’d open it up for you
I think a part of you is listening
To the part of me that whispering
I’m not asking you to love me
I’m just talking about some company
I know i’m not alone in wanting
But you joke that you’re almost 30
And you sleep in a sleeping bag
It’s alright cause i’m still sleeping
In the same room i’ve always had
You’ve fooled yourself into thinking
that you’re making some kind of strides
by getting yourself to tell me
the things that you normally hide
and i drive you when i shouldn’t
back to your door
we both sat there laughing
with a classic hesitation
as to whats supposed to happen
and I know that you won’t kiss me
and i don’t want to come inside
if in the morning you’d say it was nothing
but something we thought we should try
and we’d still be strangers
TALKING TO THE DEAD
Taken by a sudden light
he never wanted out
but he is now.
They wait until his mother lands
to give her news she won’t understand.
Everyone on the ground is
already trying to figure it out.
She’s alone but she’d never tell
she feels her lover ought to
know her well
enough to call
enough to ask
enough to try though
he don’t understand.
He’s just diving in
to where she’s already been
talking to the dead
talking to the dead
And it’s the age of forgetting
but we’re excessively evading
The facts and the physics
Of what’s becoming non existent.
and in the interest
of distraction
I’m just looking for some
Kind of reaction
but i’m talking to the dead
Talking to the dead
WATERCOLOR LOVER
Watercolor lover
a portait of you
falling off the page
there's nothing to remember
but the glass turning blue
like some kind of magic
if i held you down
into that river would I
wash this all away
till there's no trace at all
still life flower
i tried to be for you
but you turned off the light
now wilting at the mention
of me packing up your stuff
asking what would have kept you
what would have been enough
would have been enough
but you held me down inside the dark
till i lost all my shape
now there's no trace at all
TEMPORARY THING
Her song’s the only one
that you wouldn’t dare sing along to
a voice like the sun, a light
you let wash every part of you
away
Bodies are warm sand dunes
she’s sinking into your slope
and every grain of you will
have her without any hope
of time standing still
You’ve got no will to say it like it is
but your limited by a temporary thing
and you take, take her as she comes
Like a wind, like a drug
Like a temporary thing
a temporary thing
just for now
holding on for the sake of
holding onto the shape
of her movements like whispered rays
burning through winter
to land soft on your face kissing your cheek.
Whenever she speaks, she tells it like it is
and you’re comforted by a temporary thing
You take, take her as she comes
Like a wind, like a drug
A temporary thing